tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-82612842024-03-13T11:31:53.058-07:00the sadness of someThis is a book that I am working on. To understand it fully, you need to start at the beginning. Between each chapter there is an interlude. I would suggest that you read these posts in order.Matt Harmlesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17594593303605939187noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8261284.post-56601192530976106742007-06-04T08:46:00.000-07:002007-06-04T08:47:27.524-07:00This Too Shall PassWhen some great sorrow, like a mighty river,<br />Flows through your life with peace-destroying power<br />And dearest things are swept from sight forever,<br />Say to your heart each trying hour:<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">"This, too, shall pass away."</span><br /><br />When ceaseless toil has hushed your song of gladness,<br />And you have grown almost too tired to pray,<br />Let this truth banish from your heart its sadness,<br />And ease the burdens of each day:<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">"This, too, shall pass away."</span><br /><br />When fortune smiles, and, full of mirth and pleasure,<br />The days are flitting by without a care,<br />Lest you should rest with only earthly treasure,<br />Let these few words their fullest import bear:<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">"This, too, shall pass away."</span><br /><br />When earnest labor brings you fame and glory,<br />And all earth's noblest ones upon you smile,<br />Remember that life's longest, grandest story<br />Fills but a moment in earth's little while:<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">"This, too, shall pass away."</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">-Lanta Wilson Smith</span>Matt Harmlesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17594593303605939187noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8261284.post-1159244715055734122007-05-22T10:48:00.000-07:002007-05-22T07:50:05.553-07:00Chapter 4 - risingThe smell of grass filled the soldier's nose. For a few moments, that was the only thing his mind knew, the sweet smell of grass. Inhaling and exhaling, he absorbed that smell. He was not aware, there was no conscious thought, but there was the beginnings of a want, a desire.<br /><br />Something in him wanted, really wanted, to remain in the grass, to be there. He wanted to sink deep into that grass, to its roots, to the soil below. His mind began to sink down, darkness was forming around the edges. It was almost as if his very mind was becoming the dirt. With a simple unawareness, he stretched toward the depths. Eventually the longing and the desires faded as well, and he simply <span style="FONT-STYLE: italic">was</span>.<br /><br />All was dark now.<br /><br />Beautiful, yet unrecognizable scenery filled his mind. Most of it green and lush, with splashes of blue from sky or water. He raced through these blended countrysides. Was he flying or running? He could not tell, nor did he even ponder the question. For a moment he pondered the aromas. The smell of dirt and grass was all around him. He dismissed the thought. His arms were outstretched, his fingers skimming the tops of long blades of grass, the grass that consumed his sense of smell and kept coming back to his mind. The scenery became a little more clear now, and he saw in the distance a small cottage. He was heading right for it, and he felt an intense desire to be there, to walk through its door, to sit at the small table inside. He didn't know how he knew that there would be a small table inside, he just knew that there should be a table in there, a small wooden one with two chairs.<br /><br />He was standing in the garden now, just outside the cottage. He brushed his hands over the tops of the flowers, and along the edges of the tomato plants. He saw the small green buds of tomatoes sprouting from where there had once been the small tomato blossoms. It brought a smile to his face as he continued through the garden. He looked now through the window. He wanted to go in because it felt like his own house, a house that he hadn't been in for such a long time.<br /><br />He heard voices behind him now and turned, only to have everything shift slightly. The garden was overgrown with grass now, grass that was all bending in towards him. It was touching his face and suddenly the scenery began to lose its focus. It seemed to be pulling away from him as he sunk into the long blades of grass. The world was giving way to something else. The beauty was fading, and it was being replaced by darkness and pain.<br /><br />There were hands on him now, not blades of grass at all. They were pulling him to his feet. They were helping him walk across a field of flowers, red flowers and blue flowers and... such a horrible stench. He looked down at these flowers as he stumbled along with these hands. As he focused, he realized that they weren't flowers. His senses were returning now, and he realized that there were bodies all over these fields.<br /><br />The voice of the hands on his right side said, "Come along sir, we've got you. Now watch that, OK. That's good sir, keep coming. Almost there now..." and so on. He watched his feet as they stumbled along.<br /><br />His mind still considered the small cottage as he plodded along. He hadn't died, he knew that, at least not yet. The monks that were walking him along had better do their work well, or he could still die from the arrow that was still sticking out of his back.Matt Harmlesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17594593303605939187noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8261284.post-1129653560528931272005-10-18T09:38:00.000-07:002006-01-17T14:14:14.746-08:00rainThe rain fell softly and slowly,<br />its pitter-patter lulling the man<br />into thoughts of comfort,<br />but never warning him<br />of the oncoming storm.Matt Harmlesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17594593303605939187noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8261284.post-1106621147436552082005-01-24T18:42:00.000-08:002005-01-24T18:49:31.723-08:00Chapter 3 - A Drip and a Christmas BoxNorman had been in his new house for a week, and things were just beginning to get comfortable.
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<br />The minor flaws were starting to endear themselves into his heart. The little scratches and dinks in the wood floors and on the trim. Some imperfections in the walls. The way you needed to give the back door an extra little nudge to get it to latch. All of these things, though originally items that seemed to need immediate attention, began to become part of Norman's overall definition of the word "Home".
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<br />It is almost like they were even becoming a part of Norman. He identified with them, even feeling a bit safer at night knowing that he had given that back door a little kick just before he went off to bed.
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<br />Some of the major flaws were being worked on though. Things that worked against that "homey" feeling. For example, on the third day after he moved in there was a bit of a rain. It wasn't much, and it didn't last long, but it produced a slight drip above the stove in the kitchen. He had seen the spots on the stove when he had moved in, but had thought nothing of it. Well, now he was thinking something of it, and it wasn't good. Since he wasn't due back at work for another week, he had decided to investigate this unwanted drip in his new paradise.
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<br />The first stop on his trek to the drip source was the attic. He had only been up there once, when he was stowing away his Christmas box. There were a few other boxes up there along with some odds and ends that he knew he would never need again, but just couldn't throw out. Even though he had put all of the boxes and all of the other junk up there himself, the only thing that he could specifically remember was the Christmas box. As he lifted up the attic door, he took a moment to glance over at the box again. He remembered that as he had put it up there, it felt like he was dropping anchor.
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<br />His Christmas box was covered with a small child's handwriting, his own. The main title of the box, which was the oldest writing, said, "Christmiss box!!!" He couldn't remember why he had added the three exclamation points at the end. He wasn't for sure if he even had the memory of writing that part at all, but he had very vivid memories of the writing of the "Christmiss" part. He had been very careful about that part, his father had been observing that. His father had also made sure that this box didn't say "X-mas" like so many boxes do.
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<br />"That would leave out the best part." His father had said in a voice that was a little hushed, as if he was sharing with Norman one of the greatest secrets in the world. "Don't leave 'Christ' out, He is the very reason we celebrate." His father had given his ear a little tug and then handed him the marker. He spelled out the word up to the "m" and then stated, "Well done. The important part is there, you can do the rest yourself."
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<br />When he had finished sounding out and writing the rest, his father had looked so happy. Norman never forgot that moment. His father always knew how to make you feel special. Most people just thought of Norman's father as a simple minded little man, but Norman, especially in retrospect, considered his father one of the most intelligent men he knew.
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<br />He stood at the top of the attic stairs for a little longer than he could recollect, and then laughed out loud at himself. It had suddenly dawned on him that the last time he was climbing these stairs he had done the exact same thing. He had been contemplating about how people everywhere must think of their Christmas boxes as anchors.
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<br />"Well, on to that drip." He said, quite matter-of-factly to nobody. And nobody answered, as nobody always did.
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<br />When he reached the place in the attic where he thought he would find the leaky spot, he began to examine the area. He looked at it quite thoroughly, almost convincing himself that he knew what he was doing. He finally decided that a leak like this could only be fixed from the roof. He started heading down the attic stairs, muttering to himself about the supplies that would need to be purchased.
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<br />As he closed the attic up, he heard a knock on the door. He was slightly startled at the noise. He knew that he didn't know anyone, and not knowing anyone meant that he wasn't expecting anyone. He went to the door and cautiously opened it.
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<br />At the door was one of the biggest men that he had ever seen. The man wore a broad rimmed hat, that Norman imagined would touch the top of the door, if the man decided that coming in would be the thing to do. The man also had on a flannel shirt, coveralls, and large, slightly muddy boots. Actually, as Norman looked back over the man, he noticed that everything about this guy was slightly muddy.
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<br />The man looked at him, and gave him a big grin from out his huge beard. They looked at each other for a slightly uncomfortable amount of time, before Norman realized that the man had extended one of his huge, thick-fingered hands in greeting. Norman watched as his hand went out, on its own, in the direction of the man's enormous paw.
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<br />As they shook hands, the man kept his gaze focused on Norman's eyes, and said, "Got yourself a leak, don't ya?"
<br />Matt Harmlesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17594593303605939187noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8261284.post-1105042508836436722005-01-06T13:13:00.000-08:002005-01-06T12:15:08.836-08:00unbreakable<strong><em>"Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable."</em></strong>
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<br />-- C.S. Lewis
<br />Matt Harmlesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17594593303605939187noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8261284.post-1104843621309200702005-01-04T04:56:00.000-08:002005-01-24T18:48:53.173-08:00Chapter 2 - FallenThe soldier slumped to one knee. He was wounded and he was tired. But he was not just tired from the day's battle, which was far from over, but from the war itself. It seemed that his whole life he had been about this war. Don't misunderstand, it was a war that he knew needed to be fought, there was no doubt about that, but this war had enveloped his whole life. And he was tired of it, soul-tired.
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<br />There was a lull in the battle, the main excursion had moved to other parts of the field, which had given the soldier a moment to contemplate. But he knew it was worthless to contemplate for long. The enemy would be back, they were strong and fierce, and without fear.
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<br />He attempted to rise, using his sword as a cane. He knew that he needed to get back on his feet because the ground was beginning to tremble from the onrush of the barbarian horde. Once he was standing, he straightened his back, and popped his neck a couple of times. There was the smell of death in the air. For the first time in this war he wasn't so sure that he was going to survive.
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<br />The first of the barbarians came over the hilltop. It was still some distance away, so he took this last moment to briefly examine his wounds. He wasn't sure why he was doing this, he knew there was no possibility of leaving the front lines and heading for the physician's tents. There were a few nicks and cuts along his arms and legs. He knew those would heal, he had the scars to prove it. There was one long slash across his chest. That one happened when he let his guard down to assist a fallen sword-brother. If it had been just a little bit deeper, he knew that he wouldn't be examining it now.
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<br />The enemy let loose an onslaught of arrows. Without thinking, he kneeled down and raised his large shield over his head as they rained down. He had been in battle enough that every movement was performed with near perfect precision, without hesitation. He heard the arrows falling like large hailstones, all around him, and a couple on top of his shield. He heard a scream from one young soldier, where an arrow had undoubtedly found its mark.
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<br />As the last of the arrows fell, the soldier rose again. He prepared his mind and his soul to rush, once again, into near certain death. He heard a 'woosh' from behind him as the bows of his own archers released their deadly missiles. As soon as the arrows had passed, he took that first step to rush headlong into the enemy. His men instinctively followed. As one force they flowed down the hill like an avalanche to meet their foes, maybe for the last time. He could see the details of their faces now, rushing at a maddening pace towards him. Many of them fell because of the accuracy of his archers. And when the forces met, there was a sound like thunder and the sound of metal on metal filled the air.
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<br />He adjusted his course slightly so that he was headed straight toward their chief. He had already slew two of the enemy, but he knew that he needed to make it to the chief. He had seen an enemy scatter because of the loss of their leader enough times to know that this was their greatest hope. He fought his way to the chieftain, working his arms with precision, like a reaper, mowing his way through a field. It was exhilarating! He set himself to the task with a slight smile on his face. He hacked and hewed his way closer and closer. He approached so quickly that he even thought that the chieftain was making his way towards him!
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<br />The soldier met him on the top of a small hill, and there they fought. No other soldier or barbarian dared to step too close to this battle within the battle. With everything going on around them, they fought. Both grinning at the other, they fought. But the soldier was stronger. He had a power that the other lacked.
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<br />The soldier stood over the fallen foe. He was preparing to finish him off, when he was suddenly knocked off balance. He whirled around to face this attacker, but there was none there, only a sharp pain from where he had been hit. He turned back and attempted to raise his sword, but was unable to lift it high.
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<br />The soldier knew it then. He had been struck with an arrow. One deadly marker had found its spot, neatly between his shoulder blades... He had been shot in the back. One zealous archer had continued to release the deadly projectiles, felling both friend and foe alike. The soldier brought down his sword, swiftly finishing his job, his purpose.
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<br />He slumped down again, fallen in battle.
<br />Matt Harmlesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17594593303605939187noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8261284.post-1102915079457621602004-12-12T21:11:00.000-08:002004-12-12T21:17:59.456-08:00a nothingif i was eliminated,
<br /> snuffed out,
<br /> wiped away clean.
<br />nothing would be different,
<br /> it all would be the same.
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<br />a george bailey i'm not,
<br /> with a wonderful life.
<br />i couldn't even say
<br /> my life was filled with strife.
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<br />i'm a nothing
<br /> with a nothing, pitiful course,
<br /> that no one will ever know.
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<br />and the marks that i have made
<br /> i don't even think will show.Matt Harmlesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17594593303605939187noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8261284.post-1095807393254438062004-09-21T15:29:00.000-07:002005-01-24T18:47:48.923-08:00Chapter 1 - New Home.Norman loved his new home.
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<br />It was a cottage really, built all of stone it was very warm and snug. His home had been built for the winter, to keep out the cold. With a new roof and new windows, he knew he'd be safe from those northerly blasts that frequented this place.
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<br />"First things first," he thought. "I need to get settled."
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<br />So, he started in the den, soon to be his favorite room, by arranging his over-stuffed chair, and a small wooden table to hold tobacco and pipe. He angled them to face the large stone fireplace. As he did this, he imagined himself sitting there, lazily puffing his pipe, feet propped up to stay warm, casually browsing through the day's news.
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<br />The bookshelves he placed on a wall to his left. He stocked them full of the classics that he had collected, some books on gardening and carpentry, and a couple of books on theology. He placed the shelves just out of reach of the chair.
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<br />"It would look like I was lazy if everything in the room was in reach of the chair."
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<br />Next he moved on to the dining room. He wasn't really sure what he would use this room for. At the moment he only owned one chair for the table. And he didn't even think that he would use that. The kitchen housed a small breakfast nook that would work quite well for anyone, especially if they were eating alone, which is exactly what he planned on doing.
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<br />It wasn't that he didn't want visitors. He knew that there were people out there, others in the neighborhood, but he didn't actually know what to do with them. As he pondered the mysteries of visitation, he headed out of the dining room and into the kitchen.
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<br />Upon entering the kitchen, he glanced over at the breakfast nook. He loved that breakfast nook. It was a small little cubby that had been added onto the side of the kitchen. The three walls were mostly window. And the cubby was new enough that it still smelled like fresh paint.
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<br />Off of the kitchen and down a short hall both the bathroom and the bedroom could be reached. He headed on back to the bedroom, and plopped on the bed. He lay there for quite some time, just staring at the ceiling fan. Finally, after watching the swirling blades follow their endless path, he dozed off to sleep.
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<br />He loved his new home.
<br />Matt Harmlesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17594593303605939187noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8261284.post-1094740754169652292004-09-09T06:56:00.000-07:002004-09-09T08:16:39.233-07:00TrialsThis blog is an attempt.
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<br />It is an attempt to increase my abilities as a writer.
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<br />It sounds weird even saying that. "... a writer" Writers are those people who sit around and spill out these incredible conjunctions of words that everybody awes in amazement at how they have been able to convey their thoughts or paint this incredible mental picture. I think that people that have the ability to do that are truly gifted.
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<br />I don't think that I am gifted in that area. I just think that it is fun, and that it gives my brain a good work-out.
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<br /><a href="http://mattharmless.blogspot.com"><img style="WIDTH: 173px; HEIGHT: 126px" height="180" src="http://flickr.com/photos/385106_67014819@N00_m.jpg" width="209" align="right" border="0" /></a>I have another blog that I have been writing in since September 2003. I have had a lot of fun trying to put things on there that are both interesting and entertaining. And I have seen that blog grow and change over its first year of existence.
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<br />The purpose of this blog, as I mentioned before, is to attempt to write a short story. The story is about a guy living in typical suburbia, dealing with the trials of having neighbors. As you read it, I am sure that you will begin to pick up on the symbolism involved in this story.
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<br />If you enjoy this story at all, or just have some constructive criticism to share, feel free to leave me a comment.
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<br />Thank you and enjoy,
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<br />Matt
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